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I should be working on my OChem problem set, but something really strange and frightening and surely ordained by God happened to me this morning.  I had to go pick up some garments for a culture show, and on my way back home, I took a seat on a bus.   

I was greeted by the scent of dried urine.  

I looked around and quickly found the source.  An old man sitting in front of me.  

I turned my body away from him in revulsion.  Of course, of course I would blindly choose a seat behind an old homeless man that smelled like pee.  I was not happy with my life choices at that point in time.  

The bus ride continued like that for about the next eight minutes.  As I turned my face away, trying to avoid the scent and at the same time willing myself to remain where I was seated (because getting up from my seat would have been too strong a reaction), I thought of how Jesus cleansed lepers.  Jesus touched lepers.  And I was trying to run away from an old man who smelled like pee.

Just when I was about to get up, he proclaimed: “Jesus loves me!”  

I didn’t say anything to him.  Perhaps he was proclaiming it to the entire bus, and I could just ignore him.  But his words stood like an accusation before me.  They said: even if you can’t bear to smell me, Jesus loves me.

And then he said, “God bless you.”

I didn’t say anything.  

He said it again, “God bless you!” 

And I knew he was talking to me.  And I looked up and smiled politely and whispered “God bless you too.”  He was not a beautiful person to look at, but he smiled brightly at me when I said so.  

And then he began to yell at me about how he struggled with the bottle and about how he had grandchildren older than me. I hurriedly got off of the bus when it came to my stop.

Ladies and gentlemen, this occurrence was not by accident.

This morning, I am in awe of the love of God, and how those who we think should hate God most can be the most assured of His love for them.  Assured enough to yell about it on a CTA bus. So assured that they can even bless those who revile them.  I am also deeply saddened by the giant chasm between what I am called to be doing and what I am actually doing.  

I have a lot to learn from the least of these.

resolutions

1. To stop gossipping.

2. To stop pretending to feel positively about people/things for which I feel negatively.

3. To really allow myself to take the time to understand why I have the feelings I do about people.

4. To turn away from forgetfulness and embrace true forgiveness

studioafrica:

Taiwo and Kehinde Lijadu, better known as The Lijadu Sisters, are the much loved Nigerian singer-songwriters. Born in Jos - northern Nigeria - in 1948 the pair sang and wrote songs from a young age and later established themselves as session singers. By the time they were 20, their beautiful voices and unique sound helped them get ahead, even in a music industry whose best-known stars - Sunny Ade, Fela Kuti, Victor Uwaifo, Ayinla Kollington - were men.  At just 20 they had released their first single ‘Iya Mi Jowo’ (“mother please”). The track ‘Danger’ was released in 1976 on an album of the same name. On the surface at lease it’s about a ‘dangerous lover’, but it might also be said to address broader contexts (compare it to Fela’s ‘Zombie’, also released in 1976, an eviscerating take on army and police abuse of power). A little known about ‘Danger’ is that it has a bridge which is almost identical to the one used by Jamaican duo Althea and Donna on their international hit ‘Uptown Top Ranking' (1975) and Trinity's 'Three Piece Suit' (1977). The Sisters say the influence is a matter of coincidence, 'something that was in the air at the time'.

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A woman who fears the Lord will not run away from God to satisfy her longings and relieve her anxieties. She will wait for the Lord. She will hope in God. She will stay close to the heart of God and trust in his promises. The prospect of departing into the way of sin will be too fearful to pursue; and the benefits of abiding in the shadow of the Almighty too glorious to forsake.

John Piper  (via happinessprinted)

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When the Lord saw that Leah was unloved…

Genesis 29:31

When I first met you, I felt a kind of contradiction in you. You’re seeking something, but at the same time, you are running away for all you’re worth.

Haruki Murakami 

Everything you love is here

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